Anger

I am so mad that I started a message on facebook to send to LaDonna. I haven't sent it. Not sure if I should. He will probably find out and get mad but they both deserve it. I told him last night I just want to fight with someone. He thought I meant physically. Right! The only way that I would win that one is with my anger. No, I want to just yell at someone and get it all out. He said I should be mad at him. I am. He has been so caring and so bad wants to fix things that I can't yell at him. He has so much guilt right now (rightfully so) that I don't want to add more and make so that he may never get over it. I just want to find her and scream. Maybe yank her hair out? Yeah that would feel good! The old woman doesn't bug me much cause I'm sure he was about grossed out doing that. LaDonna does bug me. She is like 20 or something and skinny. I just had a baby so I still have all this flab and I'm pretty sure I won't be losing all the weight. She does have an ugly face but someone could get past that. I guess the mental issues would not tempt him. He was with her more times and I wonder why? If he couldn't even keep it up for her why keep seeing her? Anger is definitely the emotion of the day!